A mind of my own =)

"Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple - to be happy. Maybe it’s this expectation though of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to states of bliss, the more confused we get - to the point where we don’t recognize ourselves. Instead, we just keep smiling, trying to be the happy people we wish we were, until it eventually hits us- it’s been there all along. Not in our dreams or our hopes but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar." 

According to Christian D. Larson, "The master mind is the mind that thinks what it wants to think, regardless of what circumstances, environment, or associations may suggest."  This is my new outlook/goal.  It seems really easy or like a simple concept to grasp, but I've struggled with conforming my thoughts based on the opinions of others for a while now.  I like when others are happy and I strive to make people happy but I have also learned that my happiness is just as important.  Happiness is something you cannot succeed at faking.  You can fake it all you want, but in the end you only hurt yourself and others along the way.  I am indecisive at times towards myself and towards others because of my lack of a "master mind."

I have a hidden talent/curse of being able to focus on a certain goal or thought while blocking everything else out that may interfere with my success.  At the spur of a moment, in a fleeting second, or over longer periods of time, I can block everything out and concentrate on whatever thought is in my mind.  I think I will be able to use this strategy in the best way when I can effectively think for myself and know that these thoughts, the ones that make me utilize this "talent", are exactly what I want.  Why put so much energy and effort into a thought unless it is something you really want?  Maybe because it helps take your mind off of another thought, or maybe you trick yourself into thinking that it is your own thought but it’s actually influenced by others?  When I can evaluate a circumstance, be aware of a certain environment, and associate myself likewise, all while thinking for my own self, I will experience an honest happiness living with a "master mind."